Friday, February 26, 2010

A Mommy's Dilemma

I am so bad at updating this blog it's horrible. But now that Simeon is asleep, hopefully for the night...

I've had this blog working in my head since I read this article a few days ago. From the things I've read from Michael Pollan we agree on many things. And in my pre-baby days I lived the lifestyle he promotes. I shopped (and worked) at a farmers market, we ate little processed foods, and I prepared healthy food for us at most meals. I was excited about little Simeon's arrival and looking forward to introducing him to healthy foods.

Well to my dismay I'm so busy caring for my dear baby our meal times have become more processed and less crunchy. Now I love my boy and wouldn't want to be anywhere other than home with him. I'm so blessed to have this opportunity. But I feel guilty for letting our meals become less than ideal. Daniel has been eating out most days for lunch, so I really should be preparing better than average suppers to make up for whatever he's not getting at Subway. However my boy is a hungry one and to give him the best I'm breastfeeding him. So it's not much of a dilemma, I'm going to feed my boy first and then after the laundry and the floors are cleaned (important now that he's a little roly-poly and is picking up Barley's hairball off the floor- blahh!) I may throw together something for us to eat.

Seriously tonight: hotdogs with chili (from a can), tater tots (purchased by Daniel as an effort to reduce the grocery bill- containing scary chemicals to promote browning), and a salad. What has happened to me? I wonder sometimes what happened to the girl that baked whole grain bread for us to eat and cooked a good meal most nights.

I did receive the Julia Child cookbook for Valentines day and have enjoyed reading through it a bit. I even decided that I was going to cook a soup recipe out of it that looked pretty easy, well it's Friday and no sorrel soup yet. I did bake some healthy muffins for us to have for breakfast. I just wish I had more time to do everything I want to do for my family. I know I'm doing what is best for my son, but breastfeeding is pretty time consuming and I want to be supermom and do it all. I try to savor his babyhood, I know there will be time for Julia Child later. I just don't want his childhood memories of food be from a can and box, at least not all of them.


Lea Freeny Browne said...

I know what you mean. I know I am not a mom but I too really try to watch how D and I eat. It's hard, when you are a perfectionist. You'll get back to doing what you were use to cooking prior to your baby. I think there is a learning curb with a baby the first year. Kids rarely remember how they were fed, what they remember is how they were loved. And your son is HIGHLY LOVED!

It's Algood said...

It will get easier!! In a year you can even have him help you throw veggies you cut up into a pot for a soup...(and you will make a HUGE pot) and get 4 meals out of are doing what is best for your family right now and you will savor the cooking again in due time. Miss you guys.

Mary Louis Quinn said...

I know what you mean about wanting to do it all. It just seems like now there is not enough time in the day to get it all done. I did not cook/eat great before the baby came, so we certainly don't now. It's so hard! And I am so tired after work or by the end of the day when I'm off work that standing at the stove cooking and cleaning all night is the last thing I want to do! I just try to remember that they are only this age for such a short time, so I would rather the cooking and cleaning suffer than my time with the baby. You'll get back to your old ways in no time. But just know that you are doing is what is best for your family RIGHT NOW! You are a great wife and mother!